My ‘BBC’ is my brunette sexuality without having to explain or stick to a stereotype


Justin looked at me with reverent fascination, finding something that only he could see. “I love your big brown eyes,” he said. ‘They are so exotic.’

On our first morning together, he made me Egg Benedict with fresh ingredients we got from Whole Foods. On our way to the dairy section, we passed the ‘Ethnic Foods’ aisle – a collection of hot sauce, soy and freeze-dried Indians.

I was Justin’s ethnic fantasy, her man with the BBC.

The porn shows dark-haired men as well-endowed, aggressive and raunchy lovers who deliver a deeply satisfying climax. Pop culture portrays dark-haired men as aggrieved or hypersexual.

But porn or pop culture rarely portrays Indian men.

So the world I saw through my big brown eyes was the one that saw me in extremes: the desexualized convenience store Apu, the spelling geek, the turban wearing a magical Indian, the ultra-masculine brown top.

My sexual encounters often felt like I was being sampled for a taste of the brown planet.

Why do they all expect me to be a ‘dom top’? Why do they assume that I am not cut? And why does he say my accent makes me sexier? Sexier than who? Why does he say I taste better? Am I up to the standard of brown semen?

Cardi B’s WAP and my BBC

I wrote ‘BBC’ to free myself from all these questions.

Cardi B has a WAP. I have a BBC. BBC is brunette sexuality without any fucking to give, without the need to explain, demystify, or measure up to social expectations that may or may not be rooted in colonial exoticism.

The new BBC clip is full of humorous innuendos. He shows brunette sexuality as a subject of fascination, fear and misadventures.

We may never know the scientific correlation between melanin and sexual satisfaction, but we do know that once Justin turned brown he always came back.


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